Honestly

Honestly, why do i even bother when i know he won't open up to me? Even IF he was to open to someone, the person surely will not be me.

sigh-
I feel kinda left out from the family as well.. hmmm. 
AHHHHHHH so many things running through my mind! headache :"(! can't everything be like it was before? 
*phone rings* cousins say that they are coming over this afternoon and staying for dinner.. DUDE TELL US EARLIER? gosh- AHHHHH i really want to reformat my  memory atm! gosh! so many things are making me go "AHHHHHHHHH"!