12Apr-21Apr

These are written posts from China. =) Even when i read over them now, i get a bit teary- Days 1-8

DAY 1

DAY 2

DAY 4

DAY 3

DAY 8

<3

Unrecognisable

If i was to go for a walk in Hursie right now, hardly anyone will know it's me. I have my fringe back and hair tied upp.. LOL i look so different! Kinda like the year6 me.. haha. 

You need to put your fringe back once in a while because then your forehead can breathe. That does sound weird but it is true, or else you will end up with oily forehead and a possibility of pimples. =\

mmmhm. Tried to finish tutor homework and maths homework and work on assignments, but i got no where == sigh- Oh i was meant to say something but forgot =\


Whatever.. mmms. OH RIGHT. It was raining today =( Half my window was opened, it was pouring and my window sill was flooded with water. The mini heart attack i had cause my table is opposite the window and electrical things.. luckily i have those blinds =D *fewww

oh daddy

Watch this clip first.. start watching at 3:00 LOL Well, you can watch the whole thing, but my main point is 3:00 plus.

LOL LOL LOL DADDY IN THE BACKGROUND! Being really asian theree ;) OMG Illia HAHA. Your mum. Oh god. i LOLd so hard! 
HAHA! aiyah

back back

OOPS. I should have blogged ages ago but didn't have time! Since i came back, i was doing assignments and studying, no time for blogging or msn. So yeahh. So how's everyone? HI EUNICE, HI CHERYL! LOL! They were complaining i didn't blog xD sorrry, you know me....
ANYHOW! I am going to blog again! HEHE just woke up from a three hour sleep xD yeahh had a legal assessment today and didn't sleep that well last night. I was stressing for half the day cause it was exam was period 2 and it was also half yearlies so yeah. Friends were discussing it after period 3; lunch and when i heard what they put for the extended response which was a big 20marks, i thought i did it wrong and had minutes of sadness LOL. I was like "OMG THAT MEANS I DID IT WRONG?" Then Lik came along and joined our conversation and then his like "don't worry, you did it right". I dunno. I'm worrying now, i but i should be okay i HOPE! Last night when i was laying in bed, i was thinking to myself "if i get a question asking what is precedent, i'm going to use cases to explain" and LOL! it was in the test! I was laughing to myself about that! HAHA! Um next exam is Monday == lovely. Got to get a lot of homework done NOOO. sigh-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALFRED, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU <3 =D 23years old, haha, LOVE YOU! =D


I wrote blog entries whilst in China, i really should post them up soon. hehehe. Good to blog again =) 

=D =D 出走 by Alfred Hui <3

HAHA Cheryl, never knew you were THAT into my blog HOHO! keep telling me hurry up <3 HEHE. Ngawww i feel your love <3 

 

nearly there

TOMORROW NIGHT SHALL COME SLOWLY. =) hehe

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i am half packed i think.. i think i missed something.. hmmmp. yeahh not going to bring much seeing i am shopping and yup. I LOVE MY PANDA BAG but it's white and i'm scared to dirty it =( it's my carry on =) along with my bag of course. ngaww. Flying at 10:15pm.. aiyah! going to arrive at 6am over theres time. aka around 8am here? =) Safe flight Mandie, safe flight. =) 


Too bad daddy isn't in Sydney. (Likky Boy) Daddy is in Port Stevens. =( He just texted me saying do i go on the 18th == sigh- dadyy, sigh-. i am disappointed in you.


Anyways.. i do hope i find internet somewhere in China.. too bad i can't go on facebook. But i do hope i can blog! =D So keep updated guys! 
I might just blog tomorrow, just before i go =)

Love you guys and hope you guys have a fun and safe holiday <3 Don't miss me too much.
-8:46pm

thee

i did no wrong to thee, why doust thee loathe me?  
Thinking and thinking about why he would hate me? I did no wrong to him... sigh- 
This morning since i woke up, i cried 3 times =(  && this is how the story goes...
This morning, i woke up at 8:45am and was like 'shet' cause i had tutor 9am and was thinking to myself, well i know dad will take me for sure, he always does anyways. And then at 8"50am, i went into the kitchen and dad was like 'you go to tutor yourself' and i was thinking 'wtf? dude you're not like that. wtf is wrong with you? you want me to be late?' Then i was like 'fine', then i went into my room and then i quickly stuffed things into my bag and whilst i was doing so, i heard him say to mum LOUDLY 'i don't give a f* about her anymore, she doesn't want to fix her computer then it's her problem' Honestly, i wanted to cry at that time, but i had no time to so i was full ignoring them. And as i walked towards the door and go, dad said another word 'Everyone has a time  when they're late' and i just ignored that. What do you want to make me more upset? I didn't say anything or do anything to you far out. I was so pissed! omg.. then i went tutor and i full rushed == had no breakfast yet not even water omfg. Such a f*d up day ="( Then when i got home after tutor i just ran into my room, closed the door and pretended to sleep, when really i was crying and shouting. I really needed answers. I mean dad was fine last night? I was just questioning myself, did i do something wrong? is it me that made him angry. Then i got to the point where i asked myself why i am the one that everyone blames things on, am i that easy to blame? do they blame on my because i don't have any reactions whatsoever? I have so many unanswered questions. Then i thought to myself, you know what? i don't care how the f* they look at me, i'm me and who cares what other people think. I don't live to please them! Yes then i was like okay, my face is red, i have swollen eyes, but i need my breakfast. So i went to kitchen and made my breakfast at 12pm. whatever. Then i was like to mum 'can you call dad to pick up my laptop from cousins?' shes like 'your dad told me that we are picking it up tomorrow' when i heard that i held back the tears and just went 'okay fine' then i went into the kitchen and started crying again. omg. what did i do to deserve all this crap? as i ate i was questioning myself all over again. why this. why that. omg. okay then i stopped crying. Went into my room and started packing my luggage. Then during that process i sat down and just starred at the wall and tears started run down my face once again. I didn't think about anything. I think it's because i've been acting strong for too long. I need to show my weak side when i'm alone. yup. i finally agree that i've been acting strong for too long. I can't hide my weak side forever? 
That's it, i can't hide who i really am infront of my parents. I need to show them even if they don't like it. In the end, I DON'T LIVE TO PLEASE THEM. sigh- i've cried for most of the week now. I think it really is my weakest time of the year/ month. Right now, all i need is a hug, a place where i can scream and yell my heart out and to say 'shut the fuck up'  infront of Ivan because he is so fucking annoying and i can't stand it anymore. 
^hmmmm =) i feel so much better now. signing off at 2:23pm =)
OH P.S Happy Birthday Russell =)

another one.

ugh this keyboard is hard to type with == yup yup. My laptop is gone now and now i have to use mums desktop. I really hate her keyboard, it's too pop-up. Probs i'm use to my own.. it's flat =D HOHO. GOOD MORNING PEOPLE! hello hello. You know what? I was so bored last night that i decided to make tumblr as well (OMG I HATE THIS SPACE BAR! have to to press so bloody hard!) Yeah.. http://aroundand-around.tumblr.com/ =D heheh follow meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. =) and i will follow you. No way am i leaving this blog. Gonna go on tumblr when i'm bored that its.. that's the point right? sigh- whenever i need to use the computer i have to go into Ivan's room.. == I'm abandoning my own room. sniff* oh wells. hopefully i get my laptop back tomorrow! I am lame and bored now... I shall consider starting to pack my luggage tonight or tomorrow morning. =D I AM LAME I AM LAME I FEEL LAME YES I AM! okay i shall stop now.OMFG OMFG I AM SO HAPPY =D OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG i want to scream now! =D ALFRED RELEASED A NEW MV! 出走! OMG it was on facebook at 1am last night ! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ! LOVE LOVE LOVE =D =D =D hehehehehehehehehehhe. ! i will post it up once i get the url off youtube. Not that i think you guys will watch it, but it's for my own memories <3 kekekeke ALFRED LOVE YOU FOREVERRRR Ah! -11:26am

Time to pack!

Muhaha! Last day of term OH YEAH! =D でも there are assignments and homework == oh wells, it's life. I feel like i don't have any hair atm... sounds weird, yes cause i tied it all up! hoho. Well actually tying it all up and trying to get 'natural' curls rather than to use a straightener.. mmmhm. oh no! Cousin is taking my laptop tomorrow =( stupid mic won't work! If it was only me using the computer i don't need the dame mic, but mum uses it to video call relatives and that's why we need to fix it. But can't she just buy another mic and just plug it into her desktop? oh well. I guess i will be at her desktop for the whole day. I hope i get my laptop back on Sunday! i honestly cannot live without it! AND DO NOT FORMAT MY LAPTOP YET DEAR COUSIN! I am not prepared and have not copied all my files onto harddrive. I don't even think that my hard drive can fit everything =S i have 250bg+ of crap, hard drive only stores 256gb == If he really can't fix it then i'll pay for the mic == don't want to format computer. 
XD i just finished cleaning and tidying room! My room was exactly like how it was during last years school cert! Now, it looks so much prettier and theres no more dust =D When i mean my room, i meant my table. yeahh... OH I LOVED SCHOOL TODAY xD Cause for all periods we get to bludge the last 30-45mins =D I loved english so much today! haha first time ah! We finished watching 'Donnie Darko' and then like kindergartens we sat in a circle and discussed it. Then BLUDGE TIME =D Oh how we laughed at Wendy's riddles! They were cool though. "Farmer A went to buy potatoes, farmer B went to but tomatoes, what did farmer C buy?" HAHA! and what also made me laugh is that no one actually wants to go to parent teacher interviews. LOL. Okay shall go and help out with dinner. Happy holidays x. -6:51pm

couldn'tholditin

I cried yesterday, and i cried today. Too many stories, too hard to cope with. Now i am worried about this friend , 'name' is struggling bad. Family is more important than anything, Yes it is. Reading 'name''s blog tonight actually made me worried then that made me laugh about the phone call. But i didn't know what was installed when 'name' told me about the story on msn. 'name' told me the story, i started crying. I could feel that they needed someone and that is why they have been so depressed lately. Then i told 'name' about why i have been depressed for the last month. Same reason actually. It's just that 'name''s is more emotional. As i typed to 'name' my story, i cried so bad. After typing the whole story, i could see a puddle of water on my table, i checked in the mirror; my face was red. I couldn't stand telling my own story, to me it was too much, too hard to handle, then again if you think from 'name's perspective, it's worse. 

 'name', 

if you need anything as i said in my previous post, i am here for you. =) Just like you've always been there for me, i will too. Don't be sad, both our relatives will pass this! Your's will wake up, mine... well yeah.. You get me. Stay strong! You know you can, i know you can! You've done it before, even though this time it is too sudden and too much, but i know there is something inside you that says you can! I believe you =) 

Less than 6days now. I don't want to cry when i see them.. It will just make the family feel worse.

Little Too Late

LAST TEST TOMORROW AND THEN WHIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! keke. mmmhm. Dame! I have a half yearly second day back next term! omg pressure! sigh- how fast has time gone? Yes i know i repeat this but honestly.. I remember last month at this time i posted and said there was one month till i go back. but now it comes down to 6days.. To be honest, not going back is better than going back. I have to study legal (first priority), do maths, read english and a whole lot of other crap! I think i shall start packing my luggage even though i leave on Tuesday night.. I take forever.. sigh- i think my luggage will mostly be books rather than clothes =(
mmmhmm.
I am so lame i should be studying if not reading legal notes now.. sigh- That's how i've wasted four hours == doing nothing.. 
How hard is it to get out of bed now? I honestly cannot wake at 6am anymore. Well i can, it's just i cant be bothered.. Just like this morning, all four of my alarms went off and then i was half awake and telling myself to get up and get dressed all that.. But another side of me told me to sleep for another 15mins =D Course i would listen to the sleeping side, but how stupid of me, i slept for another hour == So i woke up at 7am. I didn't want to tell dad to take me cause yeah, then i was like okay within 10mins you must get everything done and out the door. Okay i did that, and by the time i went out it was 7:15am. fair enough. Didn't rain so all good. Then it started to sprinkle == Lovely.. So i walked back home and told dad to take me. In the end i told dad to take me. And the thing that pissed me off was that when i got home it stopped sprinkling == Grrrr.! 
Okay i am lame. I shall get back to study and mathematics.. I LOATHE THEE MATHEMATICS; LIMITS AND WHATEVER THERE IS TO COME =( -5:52pm

tears shed

Currently it is 11:01pm. And i should be getting to bed but because a friend made a blog, i had to read it. Yes this is a very very close friend of mine. After reading the most recent post, i shed tears. It made me realise how i was acting to my family compared to theirs. My friends father went off on a trip and before he left, their whole family had a big hug. That really made me emotional. I don't know why but yes it did. I don't know, it's hard explaining, seeing them, well reading that they love each other, its nice to know. But when you think about it, think about my own family, i just break down in tears. I mean when was the last time we as a family hugged? I can tell you, even i can't remember. I feel happy for you, i really do. And as i read on, day thirteen, twelve, eleven, i realise how this friend changed. Is it because of what i think it is, i don't know. I want to tell this friend that, if you have any problems you want to vent to people, i am always here. I always vent to you, i don't see why you can't vent to me, unless you don't trust me, then that's another story. I don't know if you can say this, but we know each other pretty well right?, to the point that there are secrets shared between us yeah? So next time you have something wrong, find me, call me, text me, msn me, facebook chat me, WHATEVER the choices are endless, or call me out to some noisy place and yell (i really want to do that but i never find the right place and the right person to come with me), yelling is good for you. I can be a shoulder for you to cry on, looking at those posts, you really need someone there; right now. Not any later. I care for you, i want you to know. I may act like i don't give a crap about you, but if you pay close attention on the way i talk and the way i act when i am talking to or with you, you will know that i care a lot about you. If you are there for me, i will too. =)

daylight saving :)

clock turn an hour backwards =) YES! sigh- i woke up late today! 8:30am, i have tutor at 9am == i rushed everything. eating breaky whatever. sigh- and i didn't finish my homework. lovely. but i got 22/30 for my quizz =) still shit. crappy mark. not good enough. 

 LOVE THE LYRICS! =) ohhh how lonely am i at the moment? after watching two movies ; the tourist and this doggy movie i feel bored. silent. and after watching the last episode of a drama series i felt stupid ="( uhhh i sound so stupid at the moment. well actually i am. I really have no idea what i am on about but yes. HELLO. yes i am lame.
I WISH YOU THE BEST OF LUCK TOMORROW =) 
uhhh i hope i wake up in time for period 0. sigh. last week! common mandie! one more week. =) i miss my cousins. i shall invite them over some time! kekeke

Alone

Dear Diary, last night i slept at 2am. It is quite unusual for me to sleep so late, it is mainly because i woke from my nap at 8pm. aiyah! And so instead of doing homework and studying i was watching pretty little liars and no ordinary family! =D keke and webcamming for a bit. =) Then went to sleep. Woke up at 9am, turned on computer then went outside to eat breaky.. yum yum my favourite green tea red bean bread =) keke. Then at like 11:30pm i started walking to the library. nomnom. Sat down, and then started to work.. time went pretty slow and fast at times.. i stayed there till 3:30pm. And yes! i did a lot of homework! maths, tutoring, legal, and hospitality.. This proves to me that i can do work without msn, facebook and drama. Shall do this more often. =) Then came home. hungry, went through the cupboards, there was food, but not what i wanted to eat =( 
Then yeah it's two hours since i got back. OMG JASON IS LANDING TONIGHT =D hehehehehe i miss my fat cousin =D hehehehehehe xD He called me a fool on msn last night == Not cool.
That means that Hugo will have to go back  =( awww i won't see my cousins for some time again! i dislike! Oh wells. LOL at just what happened int he kitchen. So i suddenly went into the kitchen saying to mum and Hugo:
"I see you have an apprentice" -me
"What? What apprentice" -mum
"Uhhh Hugo?" -me
"I'm no apprentice, i'm an assistant!" -hugo
"No! you're an apprentice, you learn from mum" -me
"No, i help,i'm an assistant. Then who are you?" -hugo
"Me? I'm a student! LOL" -me
hahahahahahahaha he was trying to make me help out in making dinner. cbb. He can help. i need a break! (Y) I think my cooking skill have degraded now. awww no worries! after wednesday i will help out! =D hehe fair enough. =)
after saying all that ^ i feel lame. Yes i am REALLY REALLY LAME! =(

April Fools!

LOL LOL I GOT FOOLED TODAY! by the bus driver O_O
 I got on the bus, gave him $1 then his like 'It rose to $1.10 now' and i'm just like okay whatever. Ans in the process of getting my $0.10, he was like 'APRIL FOOLS!' i'm like like 'OH LOL!' hahaha
Then there were two more people who had to get on the bus; international students and then the bus driver played the same trick on them and he were full 'what? are you serious?' haha Just looking at them made me laugh! HAHA omg in legal, most of the class got fooled by ms when she said 'your legal test is next monday' and the whole class went 'WHATTT?' .. then she's like 'haha April fools!' >< hehehehe April fooled twice! But i was literally like 'OMG ARE YOU SERIOUS?' xD xD
<3
OMGGG it is SHOW LO'S CONCERT TONIGHT! LOL i came home at 4pm and then at like 4:30pm my cousin came into my room asking if i wanted to go. Then i'm like 'Where abouts are we going to sit?' Then his like 'At the top...' .. and i was like '.....uhh no thanks' xD I won't be able to see him clearly! yeahh. Then at like 4:45pm i went to get a nap... and i got woken at 6pm for dinner and then i'm just like 'uhhh i'm sleeping, leave me food' xD Then i woke at 8pm. OMG SUCH A GOOD SLEEP! =D 4 hours! kekekeke. sigh- i'm going to have to work hard tonight and tomorrow to get my tutor homework finished! =( Such hard questions! hehe thankyou mr leung for teaching me a question! =) =) mmmhmm.... 11:37pm at the moment. Shall get back to homeworking!