tears shed

Currently it is 11:01pm. And i should be getting to bed but because a friend made a blog, i had to read it. Yes this is a very very close friend of mine. After reading the most recent post, i shed tears. It made me realise how i was acting to my family compared to theirs. My friends father went off on a trip and before he left, their whole family had a big hug. That really made me emotional. I don't know why but yes it did. I don't know, it's hard explaining, seeing them, well reading that they love each other, its nice to know. But when you think about it, think about my own family, i just break down in tears. I mean when was the last time we as a family hugged? I can tell you, even i can't remember. I feel happy for you, i really do. And as i read on, day thirteen, twelve, eleven, i realise how this friend changed. Is it because of what i think it is, i don't know. I want to tell this friend that, if you have any problems you want to vent to people, i am always here. I always vent to you, i don't see why you can't vent to me, unless you don't trust me, then that's another story. I don't know if you can say this, but we know each other pretty well right?, to the point that there are secrets shared between us yeah? So next time you have something wrong, find me, call me, text me, msn me, facebook chat me, WHATEVER the choices are endless, or call me out to some noisy place and yell (i really want to do that but i never find the right place and the right person to come with me), yelling is good for you. I can be a shoulder for you to cry on, looking at those posts, you really need someone there; right now. Not any later. I care for you, i want you to know. I may act like i don't give a crap about you, but if you pay close attention on the way i talk and the way i act when i am talking to or with you, you will know that i care a lot about you. If you are there for me, i will too. =)