Blue

No pain, No gain. Over the past few days a lot has happened. Happy things that is.. But underneath all this happiness is pain. I can smile all i want, but is that really what i am feeling? Happy? When i smile, i can convince people that i am happy, but i can confess that this is not happiness i am going through, it's the direct opposite. I'm starting to doubt if you even care about me anymore. I've also been thinking a side.. A lot of bad possibilities, but on top of all that, i hide it with a smile of course. sigh- Every time you're on msn, i am tempted to talk to you, but i don't dare to. You know why? Cause i am afraid of your response. sigh- My minds confused now, i don't know how to walk the next step. 

MONDAY- maths exam! OMG I FAILED BAD! AND I MEAN IT THIS TIME.. *i always say that* =( results are said to come out at the start of next week. OMG for once i don't want my exam paper back. That's how bad i did them.. far out.. I'm so pissed man. How can my calculator show that 180-172-5=5? IT EQUALS TO 3!?@?!@?!? omg.. lost all marks on that question.. that's like what? 6marks? OMG... how stupid of me? omg! okay shall stop. omg. i am so pissed! grrr.

This morning, i swear, my 5th alarm did not ring! I was half awake for the past 4 alarms and then i was like "yeah yeah i will wake on the next one" but then i didn't... i slept all the way till 7:15am. == Then i jumped up like a ninja as always and then ran around the house. Told my mother to wake up and yeahh.. Surprisingly i still can get everything done in 10mins =D Munched my breakfast down in 5mins =( ahh it was just a massive race to finish everything before 7:30am. I know i can't be late today for period 0 cause it's maths, and if you are late, well say hello to period 4.. HAHA i can be a bit late for everything else but not MATHS! Well i got to school on time (just before the bell) YESS! But i couldn't find Kylie or Cheryl anywhere. sigh- they came at 8:51am? And they had to stay back for period 4.. ngawww i feel sorry for them. Kylie was late cause of the time on her phone, Cheryl was late cause of her dad.. sigh-
heheheheheh today in English was another freak show performed by Mr Replacement Teacher. =D hehehe. Then when the bell rang for lunch, it started pouring?!?!?!?!?! and then i had an umbrella out, but cbb to open it, so i was walking all the way from D8 back to the main building. Rain. Sometime i just want to stand in it and let it wash away the pain that people cause. But then again that will result in getting cold. so nahh.. Yer.. then stayed back for lunch then went homeee.

Pretty, i have another 4 assessments till i am free.. Oh it's week 6 so uhh 4 or 5 or 6 weeks of school left? =D But then again, there is plenty of homework so .. not so happy. -5:30pm